comfortable regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week) getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries at ease eating well (no more microwaves dinners and saturated fats) a patient better driver a safer car sleeping well (no bad dreams) no paranoia careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole) keep in contact with old friends will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in the wall) favors for favors fond but not in love charity standing orders on sundays ring road supermarket (no killing moths or putting boiling water on ants) car wash (also on sundays) no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate nothing so childish- at better pace slower more calculated no chance of escape now self-employed concerned (but powerless) an empowered and informed member of society (pragmatism not idealism) will not cry in public less chance of illness tires that grip the wet a good memory still cries at a good film still kisses with saliva no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick that's driven into frozen winter shit (the ability to laugh at weakness)
calm
fitter
healthier and more productive
a pig in a cage on antibiotics